I've thought a lot this past week (well, really, the past few months) about life, priorities, etc. Sort of happens when someone tells you you have cancer. On Tuesday night I was lucky enough to hear Julie De Azvedo-Hanks, an LDS singer/songwriter and marriage and family therapist, speak to women in my church. I just want to say, I aspire to be Julie. She has 10 CDs, plays beautiful piano and of course sings like an angel. Not just that, she is a mom, and also counsels others and helps them get through their rough times. Wow! What an inspiration. After her counseling session with us women, I felt the overwhelming need to be more gentle with myself. It reminded me of a song written by Michael McLean called "Gentle." I used to play this song all the time when I was younger, even performed it a time or two. The whole song is very simple, but so powerful. As I sing it now, as a grown woman and mother nearing the big 3-0 and contemplating my life and my priorities, I realize the lyrics are so right-on. We go through so much in this world, especially us women, and we need to be Gentle. Be gentle with others, but more importantly, with ourselves. Too often I know I try to be superwoman. I want to be 100% at everything I do. Then when I'm not 'perfect', I feel like I've failed. How many do that? Lots of us. I need to remember to be gentle like my Savior is with me. He knows what I'm going through. The times when I struggle, I just have to remember He is always there.
So, as a reminder for me to slow down and be easy on myself, I pulled out this old song of mine from my past, tried out Garageband for the first time, and pluncked down a few tracks. Don't judge me. I sang it once, didn't like the key, changed it, then just kept my first takes on both the piano and vocals. I have no standup mic, so just used the built-in on my iMac. (I did mix my vocals up a little with some "Live performance" editing option, to add some spice.) I've missed singing. It used to be such a huge part of my life. Hopefully this will motivate me to do it more (and to learn the program so I can make it sound more professional. ;) ) So, to all of us, me included... let's be more gentle with ourselves.
I'm a strong-willed woman, wife, mom of three, LDS, U of U grad, runner, gymnastics fanatic, card maker, piano player, slightly OCD, singer, chocolate lover, office manager, cancer survivor, and friend. I started this blog to keep in touch with family and friends, and it slowly turned into my own personal therapeutic outlet. Nothing better than typing out your thoughts, trying to make sense of life.