Two Steps Forward, One Step Back

Today has been the hardest day since I've been here.  I still don't have my pain managed and am struggling because of it.  I woke up at 3am in major pain and around 4:30am threw up my dinner from the night before (something with carrots, I remember that much.)  That hurt pretty badly on my incision, and I'm crossing my fingers I don't throw up again while I'm here.  Yuck!  This morning I was absolutely sick to my stomach.  The pharmacist (my friend, Devere Day, who was in our ward up at the U when we were all in school) and I spoke about the drugs I'm on and figured the oxycodon wasn't a good match for me (obviously), so for the rest of today I've been taking tylenol, ibuprofen, and this IV drug like morphine called dilaudid.  Not sure how I'll manage at home without a narcotic because just tylenol and ibuprofen won't do the trick.  I'm sure they will send me home with something else, just not sure what yet.  On top of all this, my lung looked like it was on it's way to collapsing this morning so I was put back on suction.  Another xray was taken at 4pm and my lung got a little better, so I'm on suction now and the dr will monitor me the next two days and see what improvements I make, then decide when I can go.  He told Jake the earliest would be Sunday afternoon.  I've heard that before though and I'm not counting on it.  It's okay though, I would rather this process take a little longer and me get home later than go home, have my lung collapse, then have to come back and start this all over again.  My one big bummer is that I have to miss the NSL 5K tomorrow morning.  I've been looking forward to it for months.  My friends still plan to run it, and my mom is heading to the start line at 6:45am , grabbing my t-shirt, and running the race in my name.  Thanks, mom, for doing that for me.  Make me proud (and I know you will!)  Kim, Abby, Meighan, Amber, Selena, Robin, Jaci, and Susi, thanks for being my "Team Jamie."  Means the world to me.

Love,
Jamie